And just like that, three months have gone by. If I have learned anything in those three months, it is that I can do hard things. Things I never wanted to, things that I pray I never have to do again, and things that I pray to God I will forget that I ever had to do. In many ways it seems like yesterday that I sat in his hospital room or with him on the couch. I feel like he is standing next to me every night as I pray his words over our children when I tuck him in. But the house seems quieter at night, and I am no longer looking for him around every corner that I turn.
If you had asked me a few months ago, I would have told you that I could never live without Ben and that I wouldn’t want to. But I am learning more and more every day that I can do hard things… impossible things. The things that I have no desire to do, but that God gives me the strength for every single day.
Over the past three months:
The truth is, I don’t do it alone. I can’t do any of it by myself. Without the ROCK who holds me up and gives me strength for each moment, I would never be able to do any of these things. I fail miserably at maintaining my composure at the most inopportune times, but in the moments when I need God’s strength to make it through, I have found that without fail, He has sent someone to be there holding me up and encouraging me along the way.
Psalm 46:1-5 says, “God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging. There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God, the holy place where the Most High dwells. God is within her, she will not fail; God will help her at the break of day.”
What’s the hard thing you are facing? No problem is too small to our Father. He is here and willing to hold your hand and encourage you along the path you’re on, even if you don’t want to be there. I would love to pray for you if you want me to! And I appreciate your prayers for me… I know I need them!
A journey with our family through multiple sclerosis and muscular dystrophy. As well as a look into our struggles and faith!
Being still for Caitlin Grace
The Joy of the Lord is our Strength
Finding Beauty in the Everyday.
Chasing Christ in the Chaos
Learning to Embrace the Storms of Life