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Are You Really Living?

               If you have followed my blog for any amount of time, you know that I write a lot about fear and refusing to live in fear of the unknown.  I try to embrace each and every day the way that Ben would have wanted us to, without being afraid of what may lie ahead. … Continue reading Are You Really Living?

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A Widow’s Reflection on the Nation’s Crisis…

I have reflected a lot the past two years on all I learned from Ben and about the ways that God prepared me for losing him before he was gone. And in the last few days I have read countless posts by people who are overwhelmed by the current situation in our country and all… Continue reading A Widow’s Reflection on the Nation’s Crisis…

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Remembering to hope…

I remember a few months after Ben died meeting another lady who had recently lost her spouse.  I was so thankful to have someone who understood my pain and could relate to this uncertain new world I was entering.  When she invited me to a young widows support group I jumped at the opportunity.  I knew early on that surrounding myself with people who not only understood my pain, but who had been there, would make all the difference in how I navigated loss...

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All My Broken Pieces…

A few weeks ago, a friend referenced broken pottery when describing what happened to our family when we lost Ben.  Her analogy of our family shattering into a million pieces so accurately depicted how I have felt the last few years about the pain from this loss.  She validated how hard it has been to pick up all those pieces and try to put them back together.  No matter how much we try; we will never be able to pick all those pieces up and restore them perfectly to what we had before.

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A Defining Moment…

Ask anyone who has experienced a life changing event, a death or a loss and they will likely tell you that there is a defining moment in time that divides their present life from the way that it used to be.  The memories, the thoughts, even the feelings are split in half by that one… Continue reading A Defining Moment…

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You Are Not Alone…

You know that time when you shared your heart with that friend because the struggle you were facing seemed to be too big to handle on your own?  You needed a sounding board and someone to hear all the anxieties and worries and tell you that you were not alone? Maybe you didn’t need advice… Continue reading You Are Not Alone…

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Does God give us more than we can handle?

I can’t even begin to count the number of times I have heard or even repeated the phrase, “God doesn’t give you more than you can handle” over the past decade or two. It’s something that has been so ingrained into me that I am not even sure that I ever even considered whether or… Continue reading Does God give us more than we can handle?